New Year, What does it mean ? Why do I give so much focus to this day?
The one answer I got was, its a bookkeeping way. I need to close some things, start fresh on some things. Its essential, for if I do not, then i may exhaust the small memory that I have.
Having said that, its always emotional and tough, for i tend to judge. Its never good to take a stock of something. Its a balance sheet, there would be columns where one would have done well and in some not and in some failed. The disappointment, the happiness all a part of the game. But still I do it every year .. the ritual continues. Will it end someday? Can I raise myself above these things to a place of that peace, where these pity things do not matter? I do not think so, at least I have tried here and failed again, to be casted again as a mere mortal.
So I began a New Year with the thoughts to attain those heights which I could not this year.
So what do I wish for this year 2011. A simple wish, may I smile and have the peace of mind. The one question for which I do not have an answer - What is the aim, the goal, the achievement for which i exist? May I find the answer to this question.
