Words that didn't tumble out.

I sat with my loved one, as two people in love, we discuss things with a passion.
She: sometimes I'm very theeka.
Me: I love you, theeki dearest, but it took time to adjust.
She: why.
Me: Mirchi lagti thi. Pain hota tha. Gussa bhi. But I would finally be back. So finally I realised. Love dissolves everything.
She: I hurt you and did not realised it. Tell me about it.
Me: I love you too much to remember the small things.
She: why?
Me: because I want to see you smile and be happy always.
This is where we stopped, I wanted to add " I have in the past lost a lot of time over this, but I have grown to love you so much over the time, that's it's impossible to think to loose time, so I'd just want you to smile always, and be happy, for that's what makes me happy, and makes my day. It's a satisfication, to say, one more day, and to see you smile and sleep, before I sleep."
I regret I did not say this, for I know she would have loved to hear this, but alas at times, words fail to tumble out.